you left me behind and now it seems time just drags on and on.
one month ago I would've never guessed I'd have to sleep every night with the tv on.
I dreamt last a fear of mine, that you and kesley were as one.
I was awakened with tears in my eyes to the harsh reality that you are gone.
every morning I wake to this reality and every morning I have to pick myself back up and realize I am strong enough to carry on.
sometimes I wonder if we ever get past the pain we go through,
but I know I'll never be completely over you.
not when I didn't just do the hurting, but all the loving too.
sometimes I wish I was on the recieving end but maybe I was just born to lose because now I am losing you.
how could I ever just be a friend?
when I know I'll fall to pieces all over again when you find someone new.
But soon I will cry my last tear for you,
in only a matter of time I will no longer be a fool for you.
I'm the big commitment you just couldn't make in fear of things only you know,
but I only hope you're not making a mistake.
I was willing to give but I was not the risk you were willing to take.
I'll be the lesson you learn from the hard way and being lonely is the price we both will have to pay.
regret can run deep,
especially when it's promises you didn't keep.
You tell me life is boring without risks, but sometimes the greatest risk is never taking one at all.
making difficult decisions is the best way to learn whats really important to you.
I control my pain and I've decided Im through.
I keep telling myself that maybe things will turn around within time
and that maybe if i wait it out you could always change your mind.
I want to hold on but it just hurts too bad.
and I can't keep holding on to something I never completely had.
you tell me Im beautiful and that Im something great, but for some reason I wasn't enough to stay.
you'll be in my thoughts and in my heart, I'll carry you with me everyday.
and it's only a matter of time when your cheating heart will pain some day and
crave the love you threw away. | 
